………I’m Still Fat

Okay, my last post was two months ago. So I should have lost some weight since I was motivated….right? No, my rolly-polly butt gained weight. Like almost ten pounds….TEN POUNDS!!!! I am just amazed at the things I was doing to lose weight. When I went back to my regularly scheduled program, I would gain what I lost plus more. So, last week I had to put my foot down. I went to a dietitian and got on a realistic meal and exercise plan. I was told that I would lose 1-2 pounds a week. I was discouraged because I want to lose roughly 5 to 6 pounds a week…..(o_0)!!!! #unrealistic !!! I actually lost two pounds…by not doing anything but following the food plan. Sooo it works!!! I don’t have to do anything extreme. It is just going to take me longer to reach my goal! Reality suck sometimes........

Starting Over

The above picture is my happy and proud face.  First I haven't wrote on this blog for like eight months.  Life have been really interesting.  Through trails, I have a clearer definition of who I am.  My eyes are open and my self esteem have improved.  I thank God for that.  I was very lost.  

So on my last post I was in a fellowship addiction program called FA.  It is a marvelous program with excellent people.  I just love sugar and flour soo much that I just can't see myself not eating it forever...or if I do eat it and break my abstinence I will have to start the process over.  I was feeling a certain type of way when I had to start over the last time.  I had a person that wanted me to sponsor her....but I made the decision to stuff my face with some candy/Slurpee and had to start over.

That is the past, I can't let that failed attempt stop me from obtaining my goals.  My schedule is soo hectic, I need to find some balance/order.  I am making ME a priority.  I started my workout/food plan today.  I never thought that I would buckle done and pay $120 a month for a gym membership on top of a $30. Getting up and going to a 5:30am Boot Camp class.  I have never thought that I will be a frequent shopper at a fruit/vegetable market.  GOD IS GOOD!

Today,  I had a really good workout. I instantly wanted to quit my workout after 5 minutes!!!  I gave it my all and I finished....drinking half of my daily water requirement.  God is just amazing!  If it wasn't for the Lord on my side...where would I be.

 

My Journey........

I’m truly convinced that my life issues effects my food intake. I have been on about every diet/ workout plan and never stuck to anything. I mention previously that I actually seen results in a 12 step program but I couldn’t see myself not eating sugar and carbs….but you know what I can’t do it…by myself. I need the help of God. I am finally surrendering to God and as for today not getting my will back. I always pray to God to heal and help me, and he has. He has put this program in my sight a few times. I had a talk to one of my best friends about it…and I light bulb appeared. Stop all the wacky ways you want to lose weight and just follow the simple plan.

So I am back again…willing and desperate. I am just thinking about the stuff I did this pass month to lose weight. I tried taking a liquid laxative and it was horrible. I had to take off work because on the stomach pain it caused. Taking diet pills, starvation cleanses….killing myself to be slim. It is too much for me…instead of wanting to act right and eat right, I did the opposite!!! I just ate more. Oh I was even thinking about get the weight loss surgery too (for the third time)!!! Oh….and also thinking about buying more fitness videos. Right in my face is what I need, my gift of desperation…..FA!

Basically, my journey has some high and low points. At my heaviest I was 210 pounds, now I am 183. At my lowest I was 175. I have stopped taking medicine for sleep apnea and diabetes. I do look better than before but I have did soo much to get where I am now. I have tried everything…even hypnosis . FA got me down to 175 but my love for food and not surrendering totally to God shut that down. I know by now that I could of loss about a good 40 pounds by now. My new sponsor loss 75 pounds since last August.

Spark Coach : Monday Tasks

Today, imagine that you live in a world where scales do not exist. How would you measure your success? How would you know if you were healthy and fit?

I would measure my success by how my clothes fit and how I look in pictures. Also I can tell be if I am/am not huffing and puffing when I am walking or running. Shoot having the ability to run for a long distance would be great.

Task: Find some Spark Time!! (make it your ritual) Wow….At 3:00pm I will log my meals and exercises, use my Spark Coach and write in my blog.

I will set the time of 9:00 to make sure that my food is prepared and exercise clothes is ready if need-be. Wow…I need this structure.

Weekend Workouts

The first picture I recorded the times I went on the dance floor on Saturday. The other picture is me on Sunday while doing my Northland Mall run.

Zumba Thursday

Since I am going to therapy, I have soo much pain now in my lower back. It was hard for me to really get into my workout yesterday but I made it. I had a couple of attempts of not finishing my workout because of the pain throughout the week. Today I have to go grocery shopping for the family. Please Jesus, don’t let my back act up again!!!!!

Wasting Time...

I'm alittle late with this but, I am logging my food on SparkPeople and I am using the SparkCoach. My assignment for Thursday was to "Blog about the obvious (and not-so-obvious) ways you tend to waste time, and come up with a few healthier ways you can use that time to work towards your goals."

Okay so here it is!!!!! I waste alot of time on the internet, wondering, being nosey, and planning on doing things that I don't end up doing...lol!!!! Okay so with that time I could be making my meals and exercising...or planning what I am going to eat or do.

So I can.......

(1) I can talk on the phone while walking or using the treadmill

(2) Cook while sorting out my food.

(3) Walk around my building instead of going to sleep during lunch.

(4) Blog or write down my meals on Sparkpeople when I have free time at work.

(5) Download Sparkpeople application to use when bored.

(6) Add my heart monitor information to the website when I have free time.