My Journey........

I’m truly convinced that my life issues effects my food intake. I have been on about every diet/ workout plan and never stuck to anything. I mention previously that I actually seen results in a 12 step program but I couldn’t see myself not eating sugar and carbs….but you know what I can’t do it…by myself. I need the help of God. I am finally surrendering to God and as for today not getting my will back. I always pray to God to heal and help me, and he has. He has put this program in my sight a few times. I had a talk to one of my best friends about it…and I light bulb appeared. Stop all the wacky ways you want to lose weight and just follow the simple plan.

So I am back again…willing and desperate. I am just thinking about the stuff I did this pass month to lose weight. I tried taking a liquid laxative and it was horrible. I had to take off work because on the stomach pain it caused. Taking diet pills, starvation cleanses….killing myself to be slim. It is too much for me…instead of wanting to act right and eat right, I did the opposite!!! I just ate more. Oh I was even thinking about get the weight loss surgery too (for the third time)!!! Oh….and also thinking about buying more fitness videos. Right in my face is what I need, my gift of desperation…..FA!

Basically, my journey has some high and low points. At my heaviest I was 210 pounds, now I am 183. At my lowest I was 175. I have stopped taking medicine for sleep apnea and diabetes. I do look better than before but I have did soo much to get where I am now. I have tried everything…even hypnosis . FA got me down to 175 but my love for food and not surrendering totally to God shut that down. I know by now that I could of loss about a good 40 pounds by now. My new sponsor loss 75 pounds since last August.